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I was just a stupid kid back then

Jan. 4th, 2012 | 09:06 am
location: US, California, Rancho Santa Margarita, Orange, Alma Aldea, 22539

I take back every word I said.

Reading my old posts, wow I was a dork. If I only knew then what I know now.

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you opened fire on me

Jan. 3rd, 2012 | 11:25 pm

put me down put me out Im fatally yours.

Old school style. Open a new entry with a series of lyrics, usually Alkaline Trio. ALK3 comforted me constantly 6 years ago, I can say that's even more true now.

Life updates:

As I stated in my previous, holy cow LJ post, I'm 27 now. I live in California. So Cal. I moved here a year ago  next Saurday. (1-07-11 is when I arrived). I left home the Wednesday before (1-05-11). Hardest thing I've ever done naturally. Nick, my best friend, drove with me in my car, with everything I could fit, and my kitties.

Upon moving here I had a job, car, clothes, and a roommate. Now ex roommate. Her friend had a roommate, who I feel in love with. So we got our own place. She's wonderful. Doesn't realize how much joy she brings. She's currently in bed. Worn out. A lot of things going on, and just seemed to catch up with her tonight.

I love it here in CA. It's just like I expected. It's quite nice to look back, and say, I did that. I accomplished a long term goal I set for myself. Later than planned. About 4 or 5 years later, but hey, timing is everything. So far that timing has paid off.

Presently, a few of the most important people in my life are down in SE Louisiana, and the a few more mostly in Omaha, NE.

It's nice, having my space from my life before California. But it's really difficult to be away from it too.

California has literally changed my life in so many ways, but the core person, the person who my friends and family love is the same.

I'm just more vibrant, and happy. Not that what I had in Omaha wasn't good, it just wasn't what I wanted to stay with in life. I needed more. I've got more. So much more. But like many people, I'm not done.

Stay tuned.

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Jan. 3rd, 2012 | 10:58 pm

I think it's literally been 6 or 7 years since I looked at this.

I'm 27.

In a steady, stable relationship.

Working full time in the TV business (cable).

Living in California.


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Brayton's knee meets Stevens' groin

Nov. 8th, 2006 | 11:21 am

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I'll slave till the end

Dec. 5th, 2005 | 03:14 pm

Been awhile since I even opened this page.

I guess when you actually have stuff to write about you don't have time to write it down.

So yeah, Im still alive. If you read this, Im not dead. haha

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Aug. 12th, 2005 | 04:20 pm

Super Bowl?

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End Credits have stopped

Jul. 16th, 2005 | 01:52 am

Since when was making a movie all about a guarantee on your product? Who decided that a movie no longer was open to failure, but a sure shot on a friday night?

When did movie goers stop caring that Directors and Writers no longer cared to even try a new idea? Remaking blockbusters is a guaranteed way to see some return.

Can't the story, idea, and message of a movie, no matter how specific, broad, deep, or suttle, can't THAT be the main reason for the effort? Why does it have to take second chair to the next cash desposit?

Are we, the average movie fan, so dumb and stupid that we can't see through the smoke screne? We are the same people who laugh hysterically when the fishing line reflects in the light, when Godzilla falls down and looks amazingly similar to our old action figures. We can find the slightest defect in any creative effort, yet you still ask "why are they remaking all these movies"


How many times have you seen a remake in the past week, month, YEAR!?

Too many times. How many "original" idea movies have you watched in that time? The ratio is getting to be FAR too un balanced.

If Michaelangelo's sistine chapel was "remade" do you think we'd have the image of God and Man touching at the finger tip? Or the pope smacking the abortion doctors and gay marriage proponents with his pope hat? Sadly, I think God and Man connecting would be removed, and an image that spoke one side's truth would be placed instead.

So many times I hear "I wish they could remake that, to make it better". How much better can it be? Obviously you like it enough that you'd like to see millions spent on it....again. So why is it so terrible that it requires a redo?

From the Kindergarten to the Graduate School, we are taught to RE DO it. Make it better. Climb all the way to the top. Be the best. Be second to NONE! Yet our society could become better 30 times over, and not come CLOSE to being what it needs to be.

You can remake Godzilla for a billion years, it's still not going to be a real lizard, that is 100000x normal size, and going balistic on a town. It's ALWAYS going to be the creation of some guy and his camera. So what if the "special effects" are horrible and that car was obviously a hot wheel? IT'S A MOVIE! Not a documentary!

If you want reality, go walk the streets at night. That's real. If you want peachy clean reality go to a theater at night.

Tell me which one you like more. Guarantee you need a ticket to get into yours.

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Jul. 3rd, 2005 | 01:48 am

Nick leaves today.

for 5 months


Me love my bro.

will miss him a lot.

bye...for now. BITCH!

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Loves in danger

Jun. 26th, 2005 | 09:09 am
mood: contemplativecontemplative
music: The Jacks - In Danger

I was commenting to Nate about putting your time and I thought about this:

I remember how we would talk about being in a band, and getting what we wanted. Really what we wanted was acceptance. From our peers, family, friends, and most of all ourselves. All our lives we were the "dorky" or different kids. The kids with no future wanted nothing to do with us and the girls with nothing to offer wouldn't look at us. Yet, we always knew we would go places they never had the chance to. Where that is has everything to do with us, and nothing to do with anyone else. Yet I struggle to forget about all those others. I see someone I didn't like from HS and get this feeling of, "Fuck, I look like a bum today". WHY? Why do I worry about people I don't care about? I know that I'm gonna go far, so who cares what some ass thinks?

I guess no matter what it will always feel medicore. My life isn't average. I mean, look at the number of my family members having to solve their problems with life in court. Some by choice and some by force. Pathetic. "Follow your dream, never give up". What is my dream? Is my dream a particular job, or just to be happy and comfortable with me? I've yet to determine that. I guess that's why I have to move to Cali. Change everything about my life. Find out how much I miss the old one. I know my parents and other close friends and family will miss me. That is a con, but the pros are far greater. Who knows, maybe I'll become insanily rich and famous. It could happen. Anything can happen. At the same time, Nothing could happen too......

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please tell me you're alright

Jun. 25th, 2005 | 02:39 pm

I am moving home. :(

Goodbye crappy apartment. I'll miss you.

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